Sunday, 29 September 2019

Sunday, 15 September 2019

Friday, 13 September 2019

What happened to my novel?

Hey everyone! Happy Friday the thirteenth! Ooh spooky! ... Anyway, last post I very briefly mentioned that I've not really been working on my novel and that I wanted to address the reason for that. Well, this is probably the main reason why...

...After I finished my first draft, I sent three chapter chunks to a small group of people, whom I trust, to be my alpha readers and to give me constructive feedback. I didn't send my work to anyone who didn't offer to read through it, I want to make it clear that I didn't force my work onto anyone. Anyway, I said I wouldn't start work on the second draft until I'd received everyone's feedback. A couple months went passed and no one had written back to me. I chased it up saying I was hoping to start work on the second draft soon and some said they were almost done and enjoying what they'd read so far. So I continued to wait. It's now been over six months since I sent five people my work and not one of them has given me any feedback. I didn't want to chase it up again because one, I really hate confrontation and two, because honestly I didn't believe any of them had actually read my work. This thought has really caused me to lose all motivation to keep writing. If five of my trusted friends cant even read three chapters of my work or haven't wanted to, why would anyone read all twelve chapters? (Fourteen if we include epilogue and prologue.)

I don't want to say I've given up on my novel but it's so hard to push myself to continue it when I feel like no one cares anymore. I set out to write this for Vala and then Flynn as well but now I feel that if no one else has any interest in reading it, why bother finishing it at all? I could just read the first draft to my kids and they'd be happy with it. They wouldn't know or understand it was an unfinished manuscript. I need a reason to keep writing it but right now, I can't find one. I've have several people, who weren't alpha readers, say they want to buy my book when I've finished it, to show their support but I don't want people to just buy my book because they know the person who wrote it; I want them to buy it because they have a genuine interest in reading it. Honestly, I don't think any of them would actually buy it anyway. I think it's probably more likely that they said it to motivate me but now even that isn't a motivator.

My readers not getting back to me has really knocked me back. I know everyone has lives and we're all busy but it's been over six months and the chapters weren't that long. I'd rather they just be honest and say they've not read it rather than keep me waiting in the dark for feedback that'll never come. This is why my novel hasn't progressed and why my enthusiasm to write has diminished. I hope to one day work on it again but I honestly don't know if/when that day will ever come. Now you know why.

Until next time,
Alli xo

Wednesday, 11 September 2019

Needing a break

Hello everyone. Happy hump day. Sorry I've not been posting lately, I know I've been really slack but I'm here today to explain why.

I think I need a break. Not just from blogging but from a few things in life at the moment. Things haven't been going the way I want them to and I want to take a step back and re-evaluate everything. I set myself a Monday, Wednesday, Friday blog schedule with a single photo post on Sunday for Silent Sunday. I did this because I figured if I didn't have a schedule, I wouldn't get into a habit of blogging and I'd ultimately give up and let the dust gather on the Gamer Mum Chronicles. I didn't want that. So I made myself the schedule and forced myself to keep to it, even when I didn't have anything to really blog about. I wouldn't say that burnt me out but the last few posts I've missed have been because I didn't feel like I had anything blog worthy to write about and I couldn't be bothered forcing something random out. Heck, to be honest, I couldn't even be bothered writing this post today but I was thinking about my novel last night and how I've not worked on that either and I figured I needed to address why my writing in general has been declining.

I'll explain my novel in another post so as not to draw this one out any longer but I just wanted to touch base and explain why my blog posts have been few and far between this month. I do want to keep blogging and I do want to keep my schedule but if I miss a day, I wanted you to understand that's it's probably because nothing major has happen and I couldn't bring myself to write another boring post about nothing. I hope you can understand.

Until next time,
Alli xo

Sunday, 8 September 2019

Tuesday, 3 September 2019

Year One!

It's not Oneday but it is Tuesday haha! Yes, I know it's not a normal blog day and that I missed one yesterday but that is because I couldn't blog about this subject yesterday as it didn't happen until today. The subject I'm on about is Vala returning to school and starting Year One!

I wanted to wait until she had returned from school today so I could tell you all about how her first day went but so far, all I've managed to get out of her is that she had a great day, she loves school and that her teacher read them THREE stories today. I mean, that's more information than I used to get out of her when she was in reception I guess. She did look so grown up today though, standing in front of our garden fence, posing for her "first day of year one" photo (pictured). She looked even more grown up when we got to her classroom though. This year, they have tables to sit and learn at as well as mat, whereas in reception they would have lessons on the mat and then play at activity tables. The teachers said that eventually they'll have allocated seats but for now they can sit anywhere. I reckon this is so they can work out which kids are gonna talk, mess about together and not concentrate and sit them accordingly. For today though, Vala sat with her best friend Lacey and her other friend Lacey. Yes, she has two friends named Lacey in her class which doesn't get confusing at all haha. Seeing the girls sitting at the big tables, ready for class to start felt so surreal. They looked small at the tables but also so grown up.

This just in, Vala has piped up behind me as I type this; she says they also had PE today and that she did some writing and "learned about maths." She also said they had lunch and played on the top playground. So, getting a little more out of her it seems. I can't wait to see what she learns and picks up in the coming weeks. I fully expect we'll be getting spelling homework soon enough. I'm both excited for that and dreading it. Vala can turn a reading practice from lovely to painful in a matter of seconds when she gets frustrated over a single word. I can only imagine spelling will get a similar response out of her. Still, I look forward to see her spelling come along and improving over the course of the year.

She's very happy to be back and school and I think the rest of us are as well. She was getting a bit difficult in the last week with more tantrums than normal. Flynn's routine had also been majorly disrupted over the holidays and he was definitely ready for things to return to normal. He napped for four and a quarter hours today! I had to wake him for lunch. Will take a little bit for us all to get back into the swing of things but we're all really happy that the new school year has started. Welcome to year one Vala!

Until next time,
Alli xo
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Sunday, 1 September 2019