Friday, 4 January 2019

My new self-care routine (part one)

Merry Friday everyone! Welcome to my second post of 2019! I hope the the first week of the year has been treating you all well; it definitely hasn't for me. I was so excited for all the changes I would be taking on this year that I honestly thought I was going to hit the ground running but I haven't. I have a few unexpected set backs that are making it really hard for me to stay positive and motivated.
After a 62 days cycle, my time of the month arrived and has completely drained. I've had no energy for the past 3 days. Also yesterday I woke up with severe pain in my right knee and was barely able to even walk around the house, let alone go outside for some proper exercise. Despite all the set backs, I've tried to establish a new self-care routine and actually keep to it.

First selfie of 2019
Everyday now, my alarm is set for 7:30am, which is the normal time we'd wake up for the school run. I'm wanting to set my body clock to wake up at that time no matter what day of the week it is. I'm hoping that by changing my sleep patterns, it'll make the morning school runs easier. I've also set myself an 11pm bed time. I don't fall asleep at 11pm but instead I go to bed then, write in my journal and read until approximately 11:30pm and then try to fall asleep by midnight. If everything works out the way I'm wanting it to, I'd be getting at least seven and half hours sleep each night. So far though, I've not succeeded at all. I toss and turn and lay awake for hours and the earliest I've managed to get up, despite my alarm was 8:30am when both kids woke up.

Along with the new sleep routine, I'm ensuring I eat a healthy breakfast every morning after giving the kids their breakfasts and I also take a multivitamin with me morning meal. I'm increasing my water intake as well, which is good for my health but counteractive of me having a good nights sleep as it causes me to wake at least once a night needing the toilet. I'm slowly moving myself to more st meal times and trying to gradually increase my daily exercise. I want to try and go for a walk every day but when incidents like my knee hurting yesterday happen, it makes that goal harder to obtain. I pushed through the pain and still managed to go out later in the afternoon but I came close to failing that simple task on day 3.

First walk of the year.
All the set backs I've had, have just played havoc with my postnatal depression. I'm trying to make this changes in order to improve myself and kick my PND to the curb but we're only 4 days into the year and I've already had so many curveballs thrown at me that my brain is having an absolute field day trying to convince me to give up. I feel so bad right now. My head is a scramble egg. I'm struggling to concentrate and I'm tired and I can't even remember what I've written so far. I'm seriously hoping that once my time of the month has ended, I'll start to feel a little better because I have felt so crap since it started. I hate that I can't even think straight right now. I honestly don't even know how I'm still going and not given up yet. 

One thing I do know, is that this isn't the blog post I was hoping to write today. I wanted to give you a proper structured and detailed plan of my new self-care routine but my head is such mush lately, that I can't even think what my plans were. I'll call this post "part one" of my self-care routine blog because once I'm of a more sound mind, I think I'll attempt to try and write it out again. I'm not sure when part two will be out, but I promise I will get it written as soon as I feel up to it. Sorry again for this all over the place post.

Until next time,
Alli xo


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