Monday, 10 December 2018

3 Year Anniversary

Happy Monday everyone! Hope you all had lovely weekends. I know I did for yesterday was mine and Jordan's 3 year anniversary! It feels very weird to say we've been together because on one hand it feel like that time has flown by but on the other hand it honestly feels like "is that all?" I definitely feel like I have known Jordan a lot longer than I have and that we've been together for at least double the amount of years.

Jordan and I have always had that bond though. It was actually one of the reasons we got together in the first place actually. The very first time we ever met face to face was just so comfortable. It seriously felt like we'd know each other half our lives. The slight awkwardness we felt was similar to when you start hanging out with your old best friend after not seeing them for a couple of years. Like, you guys have a history but you're unsure how much you've both changed in your time apart so you start with small talk until you realise the other person hasn't really changed and you pick the friendship up as if no time passed at all. It was that kind of feeling. We just had this instant connection and honestly something within me awoke. I like to believe it was my soul waking up and saying "oh there you are, I've been looking for you." Because the following day when Jordan got back on the train to return home, it felt like a part of me was ripped out. The further the train moved away, the greater the pain was. I had to hold back tears the entire walk home. I couldn't understand why I was heartbroken. I knew I liked Jordan and he liked me, that was the whole reason we decided to meet face to face but I didn't realise my feelings for him were so deep that his departure would actually break my heart! I knew in that moment that he was my soulmate because that pain I was feeling was my soul being torn out of me, trying to stay with his. He later told me he felt the same pain as the train pulled away. I messaged him as soon as I got home and said I didn't want to be without him and asked him to be my boyfriend. I felt like I was going to throw up while waiting for a text back but when the word "yes" flashed up on my screen, my heart started racing. That day was December 9th 2015. We've been together ever since....obviously.

But look how far we've come in 3 years. We've moved in together which required Vala and I to move half way across the country. We're engaged and starting to plan our wedding together. And we created an entire new life in the form of our son Flynn. That's a lot of stuff to happen in the space of 3 short years. I wouldn't change a damn thing though. My love for Jordan has only gotten stronger with each passing day. I've never had a relationship last longer than three and a half years. In fact, by the 3 year mark, my feelings have usually all but died and I spend the last few months trying to rekindle something but my heart shows no interest. So the fact that I love Jordan more than I did on day 1 goes to show just how different he is to all my other relationships. He definitely is the one for me. And we celebrated our love yesterday by spending time with the kids first and the by going out for a really nice meal together in the evening and then hitting a desserts bar afterwards. Vala and Flynn were watched by Jordan's mum for couple of hours while we were at dinner and Vala lost her first tooth while she was there. Jordan and I got to play tooth fairy in the last few minutes of our anniversary which was kinda fun.

So yeah, it has been 3 wonderful years with Jordan and I feel so blessed to have spent this time with such an incredible man. Sure, we have our up's and downs; especially lately where we've had a lot of downs but each down has only bought us closer together and made us stronger. Having a baby makes or breaks a relationship and having Flynn definitely put a strain on us with my PND but Jordan's love never wavered and he has supported me endlessly throughout it all. So even now, we're only getting stronger. I love him so much and I'm so happy I get to spend the rest of my life with him.

Until next time,
Alli xo


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