Saturday, 27 October 2018

Monthly Challenge: October

Happy (late) Saturday everyone! Little bit of a late post coming in but I have a fun reason for it. Today I feel like a successfully completed this months challenge. But what was this months challenge you ask?

Well, this month was all about NaNoWriMo Preparation. NaNoWriMo starts next Thursday and whilst I'm not going into it expecting to hit 50,000 words by November 30th, I still wanted to go into as prepared as I could be, to get as close to 50k words as possible. So I've been trying to write more of my novel and plan out my method for tackling NaNoWriMo next month but nothing of what I did made me feel like I'd completed this months challenge; until today.

For you see, today I did something I haven't done since I've lived in the UK. That's more than 7 years. Today, I put myself out of my comfort zone and attended my first ever NaNoWriMo writers meet up with fellow writers and NaNo participants in my area. And I did it all on my own. No Jordan there by my side to give me support, no; I travelled to the meeting point on my own and walked in the doors of the cafè totally solo. That in itself was a HUGE accomplishment for me!

I changed a lot as a result of my first marriage and none of it for the better. My ex was very controlling and would scare me out of going out anywhere or meeting anyone new. He twisted the world around me and convinced me the UK wasn't as safe as Australia and drilled into me that he knew better because he grew up here. And naively, I listened. For years I've been scared to go anywhere alone; always fearful for my safety. So when the invite to attend the NaNoWriMo writers meet up came my way, I knew I had to attend to regain something that was taken from me the moment I met my ex; my independence.

I was terrified and seriously anxious but I refused to accept that after everything my ex put me through, that he'd turned me, me; a outgoing, independent extrovert, into a scared little introvert with social anxiety. I had to go to prove to myself that deep down I am still me! And I'm so glad I did. Not only because it was a big step in the right direction for my mental and emotional health but because I got to talk with other writers, share our passions and get some cool stuff to prepare me for NaNoWriMo. I feel so ready and excited for November 1st now. I just want it to hurry up! And that is why I'm going this months challenge a success. YAY ME!

Until next time,
Alli xo


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