Monday, 1 May 2017

Pregnancy Update: 5+1 weeks.

Is it just me or does time feel like it's just dragging on at the moment? Normally weeks fly by but since finding out I'm pregnant, time has slowed dramatically. It seriously feels like more than 2 weeks ago that i took my first pregnancy test but in reality it was only 8 days ago. I'm only 5+1 weeks yet feel I should be at least 7 weeks by now.

I know it's still early but I'm not happy with my symptoms....or lack there of. With Vala my morning sickness started 2 days after i discovered i was pregnant and continued right through until i was 14 weeks. This time, I'm lucky if i feel even a shred of nausea. Any symptoms I do experience all happen at night so every morning I wake up feeling normal and that disheartens me because I then convince myself that I can't be pregnant and that my body is playing a very cruel joke on me. Then comes the evening and the uterus twinges start, my breasts become more tender, the hunger becomes insatiable and I seem to run to the loo every half an hour. At night I feel like I'm in the early stages of pregnancy but during the day i just feel a little more tired than normal and a bit moody.

I hate not feeling pregnant because it puts so many negative thoughts in my head, like am I going to have a missed miscarriage, is this just a hormone imbalance and not really pregnancy etc. I'm finding it more and more difficult to get through each day with a positive attitude. Just feel that the further into the pregnancy I get, the more crappy symptoms, like nausea and morning sickness, i should be feeling and when I get though the day feeling nothing more than tired and cranky, I get disheartened.

I'm just finding it too hard to get excited about the pregnancy at the moment because my head is in denial and various other negative places. I just hope seeing the doctor on Wednesday will help and I'll start feeling sick and pregnant soon.

Until Next Time
Alli xoxo


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